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ABBA REALLY HEALS!

ABBA REALLY HEALS!
Life After Loss:29 years later. (copyrighted By Elder Dorn J.B. Walker)
(Part I)

As we near the holidays, I am mindful that as some are preparing for precious family times and elaborate menus and décor, the emotions of others are beginning to spiral down. So I am stirred to write to all who would read and receive comfort during this difficult time. It’s been a while; but there is never a written word until Abba inspires me.

As I think back some 29 years ago, I know that Abba really heals! (Father God is truly our Source of Healing and Wholeness). He healed me and I am His Ambassador; fully persuaded and determined to represent Him—He is the Healer and the Great Physician over all of our cares, brokenness, burdens, worries, issues, and stress; no matter how deep the pain.

As you read this BLOG, don’t cry for me, I am free and my prayer is that you too will make the right choice to freedom! On this very date on October 21st in 1986, I became conscious of eternity and I was presented with pressing choices at the young age of 23—the choices were screaming—WHAT WILL IT BE? My choices included: (1) Do I settle with depression, heartache, stress, and emotional pain? Do I wallow in self-pity with a constant victim mentality? OR…there it was the big OR; (2) Would I be willing to accept and receive the Love, Joy, and Peace instead of my destructive emotional PAIN by learning to live free with Jesus, God’s only begotten Son, who rules and who reigns? Yes, He wants us to reign with Him and to truly experience the power of His resurrection from every low place. We can get to that place and we can get there now!

I am so free and yes, I didn’t and I don’t suppress! Suppression is a fake place and I don’t wear masks or believe in them. No masquerades for me please! What you see is what you get! I like and I am attracted to real things—because they make us “free” to be who we were always meant to be. This is a beautiful place of no hindrances. As I learned to turn over my crazy life to Jesus, He taught me how to move forward intentionally, cautiously, and purposefully until everything that hindered no longer blocked my view to freedom’s destiny.

As every emotional moment seemed to press me down, I looked forward to the supernatural RISE to higher heights and to a deeper sensing of Abba’s love and closeness. I simply learned that no matter what, He WILL NEVER LET GO! He has me!

In my book, “Life After Loss: A Journey Into Wholeness”, my very first Pastor, the late Dr. Charles Phillips writes in his foreword—“By death, divorce, abandonment, rejection, or any other of life’s occasional cruelties, it hurts to lose. The sense of loss is difficult to articulate in that its intangibility is relative. Paul states in Second Corinthian 1:8, “…that we were pressed out of measure…” As this great apostle tried to express the depth of his despair, there was no way to measure it. There was just the sense of pleasure exhausted. The unfortunate part of passing this way is that many feel destined to remain at this state in life. If you are one of those who arrive at this address; you have several options open to you. The choice you make will determine your future…”

Yes, we have the power to choose. As we choose, don’t bargain and switch relentlessly. God is not into the business of bait and switch. We can make permanent choices that will forever change us and mold our future with permanent strength and wholeness. Keep in mind that our wholeness directly or indirectly affects everyone around us—either positively or negatively. When we choose wholeness, everybody wins. Come on, GO FOR IT! As you choose to win, everyone around you will also win and that is some awesomely great news! (Whole people attracting whole people–wholeheartedly!) Wow, I like that! It came right through me…I would not have thought of that!

Here is my story—Part I

On October 21, 1986, my husband’s death began a series of tragedies that left me feeling trapped in an enormous storm with gigantic whirlwinds. (Yes, I became a widow at the age of 23.) On this date, I was a college student with 6 weeks left to complete my bachelor’s degree in Accounting—and I had to choose–I also had a 4 year old daughter—I became a single parent and I had to choose. I had no job—but I had to choose.

I will never forget that day. I was home studying for an exam while my husband, Steuart H. Wheatley, went fishing with friends. At about 4:00 p.m. the Police called my home to tell me that there had been an accident. The Police went on to say that your husband had accidently drowned—His voice trailed off in the distance…My life instantly turned into a nightmare which I knew I had to wake up from—If I stayed there, I would die and I wanted to. What a pitiful state. Four days later, my Uncle Emmanuel Bertrand died suddenly from a heart attack. A month later, a $150,000 lawsuit was filed against me from a traffic incident that occurred two years earlier. Also, I learned that my oldest sister, Gloria, was terminally ill with breast cancer. She died seven months later. Gloria was a second Mom to me and I loved her dearly (As I write this blog, I also honor my sister and remind all of us about breast cancer awareness Month).

I cried uncontrollably for weeks. I was suicidal, numb, and I could not sleep. My motivation for life was gone and I almost dropped out of College because I saw no reason to continue. I was losing my mind and I felt as though no one understood what I was going through. My tragedies were too much for me to bear. At the age of 23, my life should be just beginning. Instead, it felt as though it ended…Why, God, why?

I came to a point of brokenness and surrender. This is the place where new life begins. Will you take a few moments right now to recount your own story of brokenness? Take your time. You may want to start with a diary or a piece of paper and allow all of your emotions to press through. Healing begins when we admit that we cannot in our own strength put the pieces back together again. ( I wish Humpty Dumpty had caught on to this. We could have saved him!) On a serious note, recounting the story of your emotional pain has a purpose. Your story is as a dirt filled bucket that needs to be dumped. The dirt represents the hurts, disappointments, and emotional pain in our lives. Any solution (liquid) added to the dirt will only turn into mud…the mud represents a constant life of obscurity, confusion, and darkness…with bad choices; always going around in circles; and with a foot hold of always living in bondage. The reality is that We need to yield the dirt to God who can supernaturally unload the filth! This is the 1st step…in your Journey Into Wholeness…Hold on and stay tuned for Part II. God can and will take you there. Let us journey through the Holidays together! Love, Joy, and Peace be unto you.

Copyrighted by Elder Dorn Wheatley Walker (Author of “Life After Loss: A Journey Into Wholeness”).

In 2015, walk with “Expectancy”!

WHAT IS EXPECTANCY?

Copyright and Written by Elder Dorn J.B. Walker (Walls of Salvation Church Ministries)

Before we move further into this year, it is imperative that we allow this word “EXPECTANCY” to seep deeply into our hearts. God is speaking so clearly to His people. His word this year is that ALL BELIEVERS MUST WALK WITH “EXPECTANCY” in 2015! We are to:

(1) EXPECT – “RESTORATION”
(2) EXPECT- “FAVOR” (GRACE & MERCY)
(3) EXPECT – “INCREASE” and lastly,
(4) EXPECT – “THE POWER OF GOD” to be manifested!

WHAT IS EXPECTANCY?
Let’s look at a verse of scripture that many have quoted but perhaps paid only casual or nominal attention to.
Proverbs 13:12 says: Hope deferred makes the heart sick. But when the desire comes, it is a tree of life….Let’ look at 4 key words in this scripture that will help us to understand “expectancy”. The words are:
(1) HOPE, (2) DEFERRED (3) HEART and (4) SICK

(1`) HOPE
In this scripture hope comes from the Hebrew word Towcheleth). Its root word is “Expectation”. Here, hope also means to wait, to tarry, trust. (I simply paraphrase this to say—I know something so great is around the corner and I am expecting it any moment—It is so great that I am willing to wait for it —it is so big that I AM TARRYING AND TRUSTING FOR IT. I can literally taste it. What are you waiting for? Do you sense the word Hope? Are you shifting a little in the area of hope?

NOW here is what happened next in this verse. As I was expecting, waiting, tarrying, and trusting for this great thing, SOMETHING HAPPENED. Oh, Oh, A Deferral appeared in front of me. It came in my way… something moved in—it appeared to have the appearance of blocking this thing that I sensed so badly– The very thing that I trusted to appear any moment. In Proverbs 13:12, this is what deferred means:

(2) DEFERRED
Is taken from the Hebrew word mashak which means to prolong, to delay, stretch out. In this scripture, deferred is used as a verb, It means to be EXTENDED, to DRAG…

So up to this point we see IN this PROVERBS, the very BOOK WRITTEN TO provide WISDOM, DISCIPLINE, AND A PRUDENT LIFE. This proverb is warning us and telling us to be aware of the fact that THE VERY THING THAT WE ARE WAITING, TRUSTING FOR TARRYING FOR, EXPECTING CAN ENCOUNTER A DRAG OR AN EXTENTION. This very thing can experience a delay. It can be prolonged AND WHEN THIS HAPPENS….OUR HEART IS directly AFFECTED. We must understand that there is a direct correlation between this deferral and the proper functioning of our hearts.

(3) HEART
What does Proverbs 13:12 say about the heart. Heart in this scripture is the Hebrew word “labe” (pronounced “leb”). It refers to our feelings, will, intellect (this describes the area of our soul) our mind, understanding, wisdom, aims, thoughts, and principles.

As soon as the deferral moves in, ALL OF THESE AREAS are affected and infected. All of our choices and what we desire to do, all that we think, our plans or lack of plans, our goals or our pointless living—(in essence, our will, intellect, mind, and aims are directly correlated to this deferral and we must become keenly aware of this fact).

Here is the big reality. This direct correlation RESULTS IN BECOMING SICK:
The 4th word SICK taken from Proverbs 13:12 is Chalah (pronounced—Khaw-law) means to be worn, weak, afflicted, to grieve, to be wounded. We become worn out, weak, afflicted, we grieve, and we are wounded. We suffer an assault.
The very moment we lose sight of “hope” or “expectation” is the moment our heart—the vital life line of our life becomes sick affecting every goal, aim, understanding and all of our feelings.

Therefore, the key word for 2015 is that it is important for us to understand that the deferral by itself has little or no effect on us if we keep “Hope” and “Expectation” in the right position. “Keep them out of the deferrals”!

In this year 2015, God wants to remove us from focusing on the deferral and He wants to place us right in the MIDDLE OF OUR EXPECTATIONS. In reality, we must become intentional and declare “I AM COMING OUT OF ALL DEFERRALS”

WHEN HOPE IS DELAYED, PROLONGED, STRETCHED OUT—We grieve and feel afflicted. God wants us to know that “Hope” is meant to be operated in the present AND NOW—IT IS MEANT TO BE ACTIVE. It is a VERB–it is happening now—and not to be deferred. Hope and Expectation stand alone. They represent their own meaning. They stand on their own ground. Don’t try to give them new meaning. They stand alone and they are enough for us. We may find ourselves thinking: “WELL MAYBE”— GOD may have SAID IT—however, the QUESTION IS: DO YOU BELIEVE IT? If we don’t fully believe what we know, our heart will not function properly—it will become and stay sick.

To summarize, this PROVERBS IS SAYING THAT when Hope functions the proper way—THEN I AM A HEALTHY BELIEVER. I AM NOT SICK–I truly believe. This means that I am whole in my understanding of God. Because I am whole in my understanding of God, the area of my soul (my mind, will, intellect, seat of emotions, my conscience all line up with God. AMEN!

When we walk in this state of wholeness, we become “Expectant” believers. WE KNOW THAT WE ARE PREGNANT AND WE ANTICIPATE giving birth. How many of us know that not even a Doctor or midwife can stop our delivery when we are pregnant. We are pregnant and at the time of birth, the baby WILL come. Nothing can stop it! Hallelujah.

How many believe that they are pregnant right about now? I am declaring that there are many pregnant believers who will give birth in 2015. If you are pregnant then believe God that the very thing that we hope for is coming to past…AMEN!

Picture yourself this year. Are you pregnant?

Here is another key point to ponder as we walk with “Expectancy”. Pregnant believers fly high in the Kingdom of God. Pregnant believers fully understand their posture in God’s Kingdom. They understand the posture of being above and not below. They understand the posture of being the head and never the tail. So let’s use this simple example for further clarity. Just as an airplane is designed to fly, we are destined to reign in God’s Kingdom. Picture this for just a moment.

HOW many of us, when we board an airplane EXPECT THE AIRPLANE TO FLY? HOW MANY expect the airplane to stay grounded? Isn’t it frustrating, when A FLIGHT IS DELAYED or when takeoff is prolonged?

THE LATER PART OF Proverbs 13:12 says…WHEN DESIRE COMES. (When satisfaction comes, when delight comes), it is a tree of life.

How many of us are anticipating something this year? Really!
Are you Pregnant with something?
Do you believe for something?
Do you trust for something? Then, this is your year to fly high in the Kingdom of God. This is your year to be deeply rooted so that life would spring forth.

Just as an airplane is expected to FLY, know that your desires are coming in 2015. As you delight yourself in the LORD…Surely, He will grant you the desires of your heart and you will fly high and reign in God’s Kingdom.

JUST AS THE AIRPLANE IS EXPECTED TO FLY…WE TOO must move into ACTION. EXPECTANCY MUST BE AT THE FOREFRONT. In order to move in EXPECTANCY, WE MUST BE AWARE OF the SAME 4 PHASES that are necessary for an airplane to fly. I pray that these 4 phases will STAY WITH YOU THROUGHOUT THIS year. The 4 phases are:
(1) LIFT
(2) WEIGHT
(3) THRUST
(4) DRAG

Now let’s look at each phase that must be implemented this year.
LIFT
1) We must surround ourselves with individuals who will LIFT US. Lifters are those who will draw us closer to God–NOT THE ONES WHO PULL US AWAY. Not the ones who draw us closer to a personality or to an Agenda. Not the seducing spirits or those who operate selfishly in the flesh for earthly gain. We must surround ourselves with those who lift us closer to God. Only God can blow the breath of life into our lives when we fully accept His son Jesus Christ.
WEIGHT
2) Remove all WEIGHTS FROM OUR LIVES. How many of us ever tried to jog with 20 lbs. attached to each ankle. This sounds really crazy. When we try to move or rise up with weights attached to us, we will only be held back. We must remove all weights. All of us can identify the weights in our lives. We are not meant to carry them. Take them off. We must fly! Remove all hindrances and encumbrances so that flight would easily occur.

THRUST
3) Look for the ones WHO THRUST US Closer to God by the use of His WORD. Thrusters are those who desire for us to grow spiritually. Thrusters continuously push us and prod us. They often induce our labor in anticipation that we will give birth. Thrusters continue to induce until something happens. They induce until the birth canal is opened. I personally thank God for the thrusters in my life. They allowed me to give birth. Glory! Thrusters may appear tough but their goal is for you to give birth. They will often tell us–YOU CAN DO all things through Christ who gives you strength.

DRAG
4) LASTLY, we must COME OUT OF THE DRAG. Ironically, drag is a synonym for the word DEFERRED used in Proverbs 13:12. God is saying in His word; don’t let the DRAGS HOLD YOU BACK. Drags are obstacles and roadblocks designed to take you out. Drags are equated to satan himself who prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. His goal is to kill, steal, and to destroy our lives.

DRAGS are never able to fly and they want to ensure that you will never fly either. But you must believe that YOU WILL GET THERE. AMEN!
I declare and I decree that in 2015, Expectancy will be realized when we steer clear of the drags. Don’t allow drags to remove you from your high place. We are destined and designed to reign in God’s Kingdom.

ARE YOU READY TO MOVE INTO ACTION? DO YOU HAVE EXPECTANCY? COME ON LET’S FLY…LET US REIGN IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD. God’s Kingdom come and His will be done in 2015. HALLELUJAH!! Hallelujah! Amen. So be it!